The Goose

When I sit here right now I taste this delicious butterscotch hard candy melt in my mouth. It makes me think about that feeling I used to get as a young girl that life was really like one big candy store, and you could choose whatever you wanted to make you happy at that time! That being chocolate, ice cream, cake, cupcakes, lollipops, jolly ranchers, you name it; it was yours!
It's like these moments that I am reveling in all day long.
It's the things that I am choosing to open myself up to.
My mind is currently opening up to newer and bigger possibilities that are available to me at my fingertips.
I woke up once again with the beautiful sun shinning brightly in front of me, sipping my coffee, looking out at the not even woken up Earth. As I felt that I was waking up together as the sun shone brightly making my body feel it's warmth and light.
I had so many spaces of time in my day that were filled with positive energy, as I traveled in and out of rooms, and stairways, and I was faced with confrontations with numerous children, adults, and animals.
I was able to focus my attention on that desire of mine that is filled with an open space of raw nature. These pictures in my mind that I have created filled my body with ease. I envisioned the purest serenity possible even during those moments that I could feel my own breath become stuck--due to the stale, bitter, uncharged, energy that I could sense from other people around me who were all in the same room. It is integral to become aware of my own surroundings.
I am on this path for a reason to get through these unsteady times, and create that instant change with a positive thought, picture in my mind, or become aware of my body's presence and breath.
I remember people telling me when I was young that I have the ability to create my life.
I always wanted to be older than I was at my certain age. I thought that being older was the coolest and best thing ever.
Now I am older, and I know that during my periods of growth and change there have been some moments, which still occur, that I have felt the waves crash over me. I have felt this heavy feeling that has sucked me right under the vast current. That suffocating feeling that can kill you in an instant.
I am now, just now, learning how to overcome my fears, and to overcome my own moments that I experience throughout a day that I feel vulnerable, uneasy, anxious, nervous, scared, alone, fearful, or stuck.
There's no reason to feel these feelings when life is a gift all of the time.
I am surrounded by such incredible beauty.
Today I created that one simple piece to my own puzzle that connects to my deepest desire (large open raw nature space). As I open my eyes to this simple piece of land it seems bigger and bigger each time I am there. This piece of land that is right down the road from me that I have just found after living here for almost two years. It is a quiet sanctuary filled with water, a goose who's sitting on her eggs as she protects them. Her mate stands by closely as he is also protecting the mother goose and her eggs. They are starting to get used to my presence. There are also beautiful different colored ducks that glide in and out of the water. The raised grassy area surrounds the water creating a circular pathway and a positive energy center. The beautiful buildings in the far distance sit in silence as the clouds drift peacefully through the sky.
This is my new space in my current life that I am able to go to and think about my reality, and I know that what I am staring at is my present moment, and it is my beauty that will bring me a lot of peace in just one day. Just sitting on a rock staring at the reflection of the water that the sun is beating on. I look over, and I see the father goose walk out of the water and onto the rocks with it's webbed feet as it reaches it's long neck up and stares all around. It made me think about how calm this goose was. How very still this goose became as it looked all about. It made me think about this goose not having worries, or responsibilities. It just protects it's mate and the eggs that are still not hatched. When I am sitting there at my new sanctuary, I keep thinking positive thoughts, and I am learning the best possible ways to create the positive energy spaces, sometimes not thinking at all, and just staring at what's in front of me and all around like the "goose."
I am so grateful for this opportunity that I have to write my thoughts and ideas as I have constructed my new path to my desired future. It is also helping me just knowing that someone is reading my thoughts and maybe in the slightest way connecting with a small piece of what I have to say; hopefully feeling inspired! I am just glad that you have graced my words with your mind and your energy space. Thank you.